Daddy Dear

When I was a little girl,

I doubted my dad loves me.

I was a naughty girl back then.

My dad tend to punish me.

Hit me with a cane.

I was very afraid of him back then.

To me,

he is someone who would just hit me whenever I am naughty.

As I grow older,

He is still someone who scolds me when I am naughty.

Mum slowly reveal to me,

how much He loves me.

Then, I never took her words seriously.

To me,

how could someone who only scolds, love me?

I watch movie, I see other families.

I wonder,

Can my dad be like them?

Back then,

even though he buys me things,

To me,

I felt like it was their responsibility to buy me the things that I wanted.

I never it as a sign that he loves me

Growing older and older

Pass the age of 18

I slowly realize what Mum had said to me so many years ago

I slowly feel the love of my dad

He doesn't show his love through words

He doesn't show his love through action

He doesn't show his love in front of me

But behind me,

behind close door

He love me very much.